Just Coincidence? I Don’t Think So

The words to this song will forever be ingrained in my mind and heart!

John Mayer: Half of My Heart Lyrics
Songwriters: John Clayton Mayer

I was born in the arms of imaginary friends
Free to roam, made a home out of everywhere I’ve been

Then you come on crashing in
Like the realest thing
Trying my best to understand
All that your love can bring

Oh, half of my heart’s got a grip on the situation
Half of my heart takes time
Half of my heart’s got a right mind

To tell you that I can’t keep lovin’ you, can’t keep lovin’ you
Oh, with half of my heart

I was made to believe I’d never love somebody else
Made a plan, stay the man who can only love himself

Lonely was the song I sang
‘Til the day you came
Showing me another way
And all that my love can bring

Oh, half of my heart’s got a grip on the situation
Half of my heart takes time
Half of my heart’s got a right mind

To tell you that I can’t keep lovin’ you, can’t keep lovin’ you
Oh, with half of my heart, with half of my heart

Your faith is strong, but I can only fall short for so long
Down the road, later on
You will hate that I never gave more to you

Than half of my heart
But I can’t stop lovin’ you, I can’t stop lovin’ you
I can’t stop lovin’ you, I can’t stop lovin’ you,

I can’t stop lovin’ you with half of my
Half of my heart, oh half of my heart
Half of my heart’s got a real good imagination
Half of my heart’s got you
Half of my heart’s got a right mind to tell you
That half of my heart won’t do

Half of my heart is a shot gun wedding
To a bride with a paper ring
And half of my heart is the part of a man
Who’s never truly loved anything

Half of my heart, oh half of my heart
Half of my heart, oh half of my heart
Half of my heart, oh half of my heart

Strange But True Story

I believe in God, a Higher Power, Guardian Angels or whatever you want to call that entity that watches over you and protects you from harm.

Before I left JC he was just horrible to me, he acted as if he loathed me, not simple dislike; disdain. He had literally barricaded himself in the barn music room, with boards nailed across the door and everything. I never knew what I had done to cause this hatred and I was determined not to leave.

When he had asked me to give him one more 2nd chance we had discussed openly our problems and I believed we were meant to be together. He had hated me before and always wanted me back as soon as we split and this time I had decided no matter what I was going to ride it out. But it was getting impossible.

His sister, Denise, was staying with us and coming to work with me and she is my witness to what started happening.

I had gotten my Blackberry and not downloaded any music on it at all but one day it started playing “Half Of My Heart” all by itself. I couldn’t get it to stop, I tried everything and finally had to take out the battery and reboot it.

It happened every day, several times a day. I have a holster for my phone that clips onto my belt so it is secure, but it would play that song at random times and every time I would have to take the battery out to make it stop. One time it was sitting on the seat between us in the truck, neither one of us was any where near it and it started again. We just looked at each other in wonder.

I had always liked the song but hadn’t really listened to the words and when I did; it sent chills down my spine.

The lines:
I was born in the arms of imaginary friends
Free to roam, made a home out of everywhere I’ve been

I was made to believe I’d never love somebody else
Made a plan, stay the man who can only love himself

Your faith is strong, but I can only fall short for so long
Down the road, later on
You will hate that I never gave more to you

Half of my heart is a shot gun wedding
To a bride with a paper ring
And half of my heart is the part of a man
Who’s never truly loved anything

Were as if he had written then himself.
This phenomena kept happening right up to a few days before I moved out.

One night my phone randomly started playing it again and I went out to the barn to find JC. I was sure he must be responsible for it somehow. When I found him I told him what had been happening and held my phone out so he could hear it. He just started crying and then he held me really tight. We made love and that was the last time he showed any love or emotion towards me. I moved out a few days later and it didn’t play again for over a month.

As in previous times we had split up, once I moved out he started being loving. I don’t know what I thought would happen, I was determined to not go back but couldn’t totally sever the ties. We went for dinner one night and he walked me out to my truck, gave me a wonderful hug and very loving sweet kisses and said, “I love you”.

The next day I couldn’t help but feel lighter, hopeful, happy damn it! And then my phone rang and it was the police in a near by town. The car JC was driving was registered in my name and they were calling to see if I knew where my car was. I said my BF had it. The cop said it is parked at Egglestone and something else and had the keys in it. I said sounds like JC to leave the keys in it. He said they had seen it parked there many times before, it wasn’t parked illegally and they weren’t going to tow it; they just wanted me to know where it was.

My gut told me to go up and check on it and when I got up there it was a totally residential area and I knew JC must be with a woman. Long story short; he was having an affair with a married woman and I guess the husband found out and thought if I knew I’d put an end to it.

I was devastated when I found out, just a basket case. The next day I was calling and begging him to think about what he was doing when my phone started playing Half of my Heart again but this time it was also playing “If Today Was Your Last Day” at the same time. Bizarre!! They were playing simultaneously! And the message was clear to me.

“If today was your last day would you waste it on a man who can only love you with half of his heart?”

It turned out that he had left that woman’s house and driven straight to another woman’s house and “broke down” in her driveway and that is where he lives to this day. Telling her that she is the love of his life.

I can’t explain it, it has never happened again since but I can’t help feel there was a higher power at work.

My strange but true story! Has any one else experienced a situation where a higher power intervened?

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2 Replies to “Just Coincidence? I Don’t Think So”

  1. Oh ya…. and that is the only reason I am alive today. Didn’t have the phone/electronic kind of stuff, but at the time, I clearly knew *who* was in charge- that was nearly 20 years ago. Glad you listened!

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  2. I have had it happen many times in my life, especially the “gut” thing where your gut is telling you you’re in danger. I never ignore it any more or doubt it, so I don’t know what would have happened if I hadn’t listened, but I know it wouldn’t have been good.

    I saw a show years ago where a detective was talking about women’s safety and he said that every single woman who survived a rape said that just prior to the attack they had a “feeling” and had ignored it.

    He said that in the wild animals don’t doubt their guts; they run for safety. People are the only animals that ignore their natural instincts.

    When James asked, begged, me to go back to him my gut was telling me to not do it; but I didn’t listen. Time after time I would ignore obvious signs until the music thing. Some times I can just picture God up there getting so frustrated because I am just not paying attention.

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