I am having a horrible time today. I don’t know how many saw JC’s latest comment (more like try novel) on my post about my dream house. Almost like he is saying forget your dreams because I’ll always be there to destroy them.
I was going to leave the comment up because it just shows how vindictive he is and so typical of a narcissist blaming me for everything, and all lies. It was very long and very hurtful. He also said that my business should flourish now because he has put information about me on the net.
I replied to him by email but I haven’t replied on my blog because to be quite honest I am gutted by the things he said.
If anyone wants to see his comment I have saved it and will forward it to you individually. It was just so hateful and vicious I couldn’t leave it up and I really can’t talk about it right now.
All I will say is he still was able to make me shake, doubt myself, want to explain myself, feel helpless and hopeless and make me want to run and hide some where far away from him. It took me back 2 years to when I would just crawl into bed and sleep to get away from the emotional pain.
I am grappling with the knowledge I brought this on myself, if I would have kept my mouth shut he would probably leave me alone. And right now that’s all I want. How can he still make me feel so helpless and hopeless?
The only comeback I have at this moment is this;
Once again he spewed his venomous hatred all over me and walked away; refusing to be accountable for the things he said.
All my ex’s like me and respect me, I am not, nor should anybody be defined by the accusations of one angry ex. Whereas James doesn’t have one ex willing to even talk to him.
He said I am a professional victim, and posted an article about these women who play the victim and that is what our relationship was like. Then he has been with women who all have this Once”victim” syndrome because we all drove him to hit us.
He said he took responsibility for his part in the poisonous relationship we had; but he didn’t say what his responsibilities were. He never admitted to hitting me or that it was wrong, once again I drove him to do the things he did.
He said he is not taking calls from his family because they are still in contact with me. You mean to tell me be because I talk to his step dad about the money he lent me he won’t take or return the call from his mother on his birthday? He won’t pay his step dad the $20,000 he has owed him for 3 years because he talks to me? How convenient.
There is alot more I could address but will do it privately if anyone wants to know.
Alot of what he said had to do with people who have nothing really to do with the abuse in the relationship, like my brother, son and his sister; I see no point in airing their dirty laundry in an effort to make himself look innocent.
I am seriously considering contacting the police and will let you all know.
I know this probably doesn’t make alot of sense because I just typed what came to mind. Forgive me for rambling.