Strength

I am sitting here in my truck, just did a pickup and checked my phone for messages. I had a call from JC’s step dad, he was calling to see how I was doing, as he has done every few months since JC and I split.

I returned his call and Jc’s mom answered, I haven’t talked to her in a while, gee probably 2 years. Where does the time go? It was good to talk to her, I didn’t mention JC and neither did she; we talked about my life and how I am finally getting the blessings I deserve. About how content I am and like she said; “I am finally getting what I deserve”.

I never thought I’d see the day when I wouldn’t care what JC was doing. Six months ago, 6 short months ago you would never have been able to convince me that I would ever be happy again, let alone buying a house. I still have worries, I still have days where I feel blue; not because I miss JC, just a blue day like all people have occasionally. Like normal people who live normal lives.

I am normal, I am living a normal life, no ups, no downs, level, day to day peacefulness. No one talking to me like they loath me, no one ignoring me, no one making unreasonable demands, no one lying to me, no ulterior motives or hidden agendas.

You know, normal is damn nice, I like me, I love me, I am damn proud of me!! I have a hard working son who is doing well, a job, a home, good friends and even ex inlaws who care how I am. I am a good person.

And looking back, over all those times in the last 2 &  1/2 years when I felt I could not go another day, days I felt absolutely hopeless, I made it!!! I didn’t think I was strong enough but I was; and you???

You will too!!! You may not know it, you may feel weak, unable to see a light at the end of the tunnel and feel your life is ruined, that your heart ache will never heal. Don’t give up, just get through another day! And then another, and one day you too will look back and be amazed at what you were able to overcome. Most of the time we don’t know how strong we actually are until we are through the crisis.

You are all beautiful, strong women who will thrive and prove your strength and earn the respect of everyone who has the pleasure of knowing you.

I believe in you!!!!

Hugs
Carrie

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16 thoughts on “Strength

  1. I don’t have the right to be proud of you but I wish I did. The way you have rebuilt your life, once you saw and seized the opportunity is probably much more impressive than you know, but it is also a great inspiration to those still floundering in uncertainty

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    • Countingducks, you have been such a staunch supporter, always something positive to say. Thankyou! Whatever I overcame I didn’t do it alone, I had people like you helping me alibi the way.

      Thank you for your kind words, I think most people are alot stronger than what they know, they just don’t have it tested.

      An inspiration? I hope so.

      Thank you countingducks, from the bottom of my heart.
      Hugs
      Carrie

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  2. I’m so moved by this post of yours. I will keep on re-reading this to get me through the hard days. Hugs to you too Carrie!

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  3. Hey Carrie, it was only 9 months ago I found this blogspot. It virtually saved my life. So glad to hear you are back on track.,,,,..I keep reminding myself, AS YOU THINK SO SHALL YOU BE and IT’S MY LIFE NOW….you are living proof of these thoughts….Go Girl…..Thank you for opening your soul and helping us realise that there is life after these preditors….hugs xxoo

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    • Jenn, Thankyou so much for your lovely words, I am so happy I was able to help you in some way.
      Yes, there is life after a Narcissist and it is more appreciated then ever before.
      Take good care and much happiness to you!!
      Hugs Carrie

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