I am sitting here in my truck, just did a pickup and checked my phone for messages. I had a call from JC’s step dad, he was calling to see how I was doing, as he has done every few months since JC and I split.
I returned his call and Jc’s mom answered, I haven’t talked to her in a while, gee probably 2 years. Where does the time go? It was good to talk to her, I didn’t mention JC and neither did she; we talked about my life and how I am finally getting the blessings I deserve. About how content I am and like she said; “I am finally getting what I deserve”.
I never thought I’d see the day when I wouldn’t care what JC was doing. Six months ago, 6 short months ago you would never have been able to convince me that I would ever be happy again, let alone buying a house. I still have worries, I still have days where I feel blue; not because I miss JC, just a blue day like all people have occasionally. Like normal people who live normal lives.
I am normal, I am living a normal life, no ups, no downs, level, day to day peacefulness. No one talking to me like they loath me, no one ignoring me, no one making unreasonable demands, no one lying to me, no ulterior motives or hidden agendas.
You know, normal is damn nice, I like me, I love me, I am damn proud of me!! I have a hard working son who is doing well, a job, a home, good friends and even ex inlaws who care how I am. I am a good person.
And looking back, over all those times in the last 2 & 1/2 years when I felt I could not go another day, days I felt absolutely hopeless, I made it!!! I didn’t think I was strong enough but I was; and you???
You will too!!! You may not know it, you may feel weak, unable to see a light at the end of the tunnel and feel your life is ruined, that your heart ache will never heal. Don’t give up, just get through another day! And then another, and one day you too will look back and be amazed at what you were able to overcome. Most of the time we don’t know how strong we actually are until we are through the crisis.
You are all beautiful, strong women who will thrive and prove your strength and earn the respect of everyone who has the pleasure of knowing you.
I believe in you!!!!