I apologize to everyone for not responding to comments made the last couple of days. I will try to catch up later but it was a tough day yesterday, my heart is truly breaking but even so it is better than being back with JC. I thought of that yesterday, when you are hurting so bad and you need comforting, do I miss JC? No. I could never count on him to comfort me. Mind you he was good when Kato was sick but later he fed him things he shouldn’t have even after me explaining why he couldn’t have protein. Time and time again he fed him treats that were deadly for Kato. And on those rare occasions he acted loving and compassionate I always knew he’d do something really nasty to counter act any niceness he had shown me.
No matter how bad my day is, no matter how much I am hurting I don’t want him back.
I miss a chest to put my head on, I miss having a man’s strong arms around me, I miss having someone who loves me so much his heart breaks for me. But I don’t miss JC.
I think a lot of times the victims of narcissist abuse are missing all those things also and they confuse needing those things with needing the narcissist. You are crying because you hurt, he hurt you bad and it is normal to want comforting; just don’t confuse that with wanting the N.