I haven’t given an update on the dog situation lately.
This is a pic I took of my buddy today, we walked a block or two and he was already out of breath and pulled me over to the shade and laid down. Poor old guy, the mind is willing but his body just can’t do it any more.
I take him down to the lake almost every night. I purpose a long rope on him and let his sniff, piss and hunt for frogs for 1/2 hour or so; he loves that.
A few nights ago the guy who owns the dogs that my dogs attacked came and sat beside me on the grass. Kato looked at him briefly and kept doing his thing. The guy said,”He doesn’t seem too concerned I am here”.
Then the neighbors dogs, all 3 of them came running out of the house and started barking at the fence. Kato looked their way but I said, “Don’t even think about it”.
My heart was racing and I was praying he won’t go running up to the fence ready to kill. But he didn’t let me down; when I said not to think about it he went back to digging in the mud.
The owner of the dogs asked what I was going to do with Kato and I told him I’d been told I had two weeks to find him another home but I couldn’t let him think I’d deserted him so I was going to put him down.
He said he didn’t think Kato would have attacked if not for Laila and I agreed. Kato was his sweet polite self the whole time and when the guy was leaving he said that if the board asked him if he thought Kato should have to leave he would tell them that he didn’t think Kato was a threat and to give him another chance.
So, a few people had already written letters vouching Kato isn’t vicious and I am going to write a letter pleading for a second chance. I hope it works. Say a prayer.
Kato isn’t long for this world but I would like him to go when he is ready. It will be hard enough but to put him down now would be so unfair.
He sleeps until mid afternoon and can only walk a few blocks, but I keep him comfy and love him to death.
I still cry every day for Laila, I miss her so much. I miss her snuggled up beside me on the couch, I miss the welcome home I used to get from her but I miss her most at bedtime.
Every time JC and I split I would sleep on the couch I just hated sleeping alone in bed, mind you he hardly ever came to bed when we were together. But when Laila came along for whatever reason we all slept together in bed, we had quite a night time ritual. I put off going to bed, staying up way later than I used to. Last night I went to bed and I said to no one particular, ” Sleepy seep time”. Then I remembered Laila isn’t with us any more. That’s what I always said to her if she wanted to play in the bed and she’d curl up against my tummy and rub her head against me. I went to bed and couldn’t sleep so after an hour I got back up and ended up staying up until 4 am before I went to bed and got a few hours sleep.
The house is easier to keep clean, walks are more pleasurable but God there’s a big empty space where she used to be; in the house AND in my heart.
There is life and light after the narcissist, I promise! Hugs Carrie