This is a repost of a post I wrote in Feb 2012, almost 2 full years ago. Everyone always says I am so strong, but if you read this post you will see I was in exactly the same frame of mind that many of you are in and this was written a year after I had left the relationship. I know it feels like you will never heal but you will, I also think my recovery was hindered by my financial situation, JC was so careful to make sure I had no resources of any kind before we split.
This post was written after he came to me in tears professing his love. I didn’t believe him but it set me back in a big way and I had a really hard time dealing with it. Please read the comments because I was given some great advice by some great ladies. The 3 ladies who commented here were my first followers, one is Tik who still pops in once in a while with words of wisdom, the other is Mystery coach who I have lost touch with lately and Noeleen who still pops in when she can, she is a very busy lady with just finishing her book and all, I love her writing, you will know her as “Words fall from my eyes” I love that, and I visit her blog whenever possible.
Anyway, here is me 2 years ago.
I wanted to say thank you to everyone who has shown so much compassion, understanding and support without a moment of judging. Especially this last two days, MC who is going through her own shit with losing her job and having a tooth ache and she still took the time to listen, let me vent and give my a cyber shoulder to cry on, Jessica, and Imperfect Journey, you guys too have your own challenges but the three of you took the time to give encouragement and made my day so much easier.
I really truly sat here last night and didn’t know how I would make it through the night and woke up in tears and there were messages from you ladies and I knew I wasn’t alone, it meant a lot!
I don’t know why I am taking it so hard, why I feel so dead inside, what…
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