Another old post from Sept 2011, 8 months after I left JC. I had forgotten how afraid I was for the first year or so. I had this constant feeling of impending doom, if things were going well I was waiting for the other shoe to drop. God I went through hell. So glad to be done with that. I hope you all are keeping a journal, it really is amazing when you go back and read where you were and how far you have come. I forget so much of the past 12 years and some of it is best forgotten but when I read how far I have come i have to give myself a pat on the back. You all deserve a medal for what you have been through. Do not give up. It is so much brighter once you make it to the other side.