What Is Your Personality Type

Do you know what makes you tick? What your personality type is? Why you feel passionate about some things? Have you been told your are too sensitive your whole life? Have you been made to feel inferior or weak because you are “too” sensitive?

This was discussed recently on a couple of other blogs on narcissism and I wanted to explore the topic further. There is definitely a correlation between who the narcissist targets and people who are more sensitive. That is not to say the targeted person is to blame for being the victim of a narcissist but it can explain why we were picked and how we can protect ourselves in the future.

It may be that the narcissist doesn’t necessarily target sensitive people, but more that a certain type of person is

more apt to stick it out with a narcissist. Personally I think everyone is a potential target, when he is looking for a new source everyone is fair game. The N is always on the lookout for a new or better source of ns,  I learned the hard way that if you think your N isn’t screwing around you just haven’t caught him yet. If you look at it realistically, it is not that easy for them to find supply; they are always trolling for new and better supply so by rights they should be flitting from woman to woman but in most cases they last several years if not decades with the same woman. Mind you there are numerous affairs and breakups in the years but they return to one woman over and over, why?

JC said that to me after we split the last time, “I don’t know why you get so upset, I always come back to you. We always end up together.” I thought, “Yeah because I am the only one who keeps taking you back.” I asked him why he came back and he said something ambiguous like I was different from all the rest. and I thought, “Yeah stupid.”

They flit from woman to woman throughout the relationship because they need the thrill of the kill, and they get off on tricking a woman into believing they are something they aren’t but they need the “sure thing” at home waiting for them. If things turn out with the new woman they will dump the sure thing in a heart beat but they are not going to throw away the sure thing until they are sure they have hooked something better, even then they often try to switch the sure thing into the position of the “other woman” as the new woman takes the sure thing position.

When JC found the mother of his son after 15 years he laid it on really thick with her, saying he had changed and romancing her. I was very upset, he was seeing her when he was in Alberta and staying with me in BC but denying to me there was anything between him and her yet he would spend the night there.  I had given up on “us” and was sick of tormenting myself wondering what he was doing and then he called. He asked me if I was driving and I was so he said to pull over he had something really important to tell me. I pulled over and he told me that he had an epiphany and realized I was the one he wanted. I was a little offended that he thought I would be so thrilled at the news I had to pull over. But as per usual, when he had his speech planned he didn’t want me interjecting my own feelings into the “conversation”. ( put it in quotes because a conversation is usually two people talking but it was more him giving a dialogue than a conversation) He went on to say that he could not trust her to be faithful while he was away trucking and he couldn’t live like that, always wondering what she was up to whereas I was…… and he hesitated … so I said, “a sure thing?” and he gleefully agreed, “Yes! that’s it a sure thing!” I said, “Great!” He was so excited at his revelation and was obviously confused I was not jumping for joy. I told him we could talk when he got home and he asked what my ring size was and as per usual we never did discuss it again. (What was so totally ironic is he was seeing several women but expected every one of us to remain faithful to him but I really believe he did not see anything wrong with seeing 4 women and leading us all to believe we were the only one. Since to him life is an illusion, so are his relationships, to him pretending to be faithful is as good as the real thing as long as the woman doesn’t find out.

The narcissist is basically lazy, although he needs constant attention; it is a lot of work winning over a new target, with brief encounters and casual flings he doesn’t have to keep the facade up as long and can go home to “the little woman, sure thing” and be himself.

Some women say they would never fall for his lies and they would never end up in an abusive relationship with a narcissist and I believe they could be right, they may fall initially but they would never hang in as long as we did or the N would dump them because they are too much work, too demanding, and not giving enough. I would be willing to bet money that most women have been with a narcissist but did not fit his needs or he took them on a few dates and dumped her. How many times do you hear a woman talk about meeting a terrific guy, they have a date or two and he just disappears? they weren’t invested in the relationship yet so it is nothing more than an annoyance. I bet it was a narcissist that realized after a few dates that she really wasn’t going to be able to provide what he had anticipated so he goes back to the sure thing and keeps trolling.

Just reading the comments on the blogs shows that the victims are all very much alike in many ways. Strong, independent and intelligent yes but also, sensitive (there’s that word again), compassionate, intuitive, responsible, respectable, dedicated, generous, insightful, well-educated and attractive. Who wouldn’t want to be described in those terms? BUT not all women are like that, some are selfish, princesses that expect a guy to cater to them, expect a man to support them, are none of the traits he looks for. They could still be nice people just not what the N needs.

It makes sense that a narcissist would be attracted to women who fit this description because they are not into giving and only interested in what they can get out of a relationship. It does take a special person to tolerate a narcissist. once again I feel I must emphasize that this does not mean the victim is in any way responsible for their own abuse OR that they need to change. But understanding why we are the way we are and our strong traits and weak areas will be very helpful in the future; protecting ourselves from falling prey again. To try to change our personality traits is just as difficult as the narcissist trying to be compassionate; he can fake it for a while but before too long his true colors will show through. We can try to not care, to not be sensitive to others emotions and to adopt a narcissistic “I don’t give a shit attitude” but we will only be able to pull it off for a while then we will fall back to our true selves.

I don’t know about you, but I like me, I don’t want to be self-centered, I want to help people, I want the world to be a better place in some small way because I was here. How horrible that when you die people are happy and have nothing good to say about you. Spend your whole life focused solely on your own needs and to have not done anything in your whole life that benefited someone else for the sheer pleasure of doing it and not because there was something in it for you.  To never have loved, cared, worried about someone you love, to never have experienced the feeling of laying in the arms of someone you love with all your heart and feeling safe. I can’t imagine going through life suspicious of everyone, with a “get them before they get me” attitude, to have to keep track of all the lies, always wearing a mask because you know yourself that you are repulsive without it.

There is a strength in being open and vulnerable.

I had never loved anyone like I loved JC, (I am sure most of you can relate) I can’t even put into words how I felt. I knew that as long as I could lay my head on his chest at night and have his arms around me everything would be ok. I had never felt so safe, and loved in my life and I had never loved someone so completely, everything about them. For years the good outweighed the bad, but then I didn’t know about a lot of what he was doing either. I wish it would have been different, I wish he would have been capable of love, I wish he would have walked away instead of making me think if I tried a little harder he would love me again. I wish he wouldn’t have felt the need to destroy everything about me.

But I will never regret loving him the way I did, I did nothing wrong, I remained true to my inner self, I never pretended to be something I wasn’t. I am proud of who I am and I am damned proud of the effort I put into that relationship.I didn’t throw my hands in the air and walk away at the first sign of trouble. I loved him through good times and the bad times, that is what love is supposed to be all about. I believed in him, I wanted the best for him, I put his happiness before my own and I trusted him to do right by me, I defended him and encouraged him, I accepted him for who he was flaws and all; I never asked him to change ever. All I ever asked for was honesty, so I suppose being honest was too big a change for him.

He can say anything he wants, he can accuse me of all the atrocities he committed against me, he can call me a psycho and say that he was the victim. But I know and he knows the truth and as much as he will never admit it and hates it; he knows he is terribly inadequate and leads a shallow existence. That is why they always have to destroy their victim when they are done with them; because they know you know the truth about them; and that if they were ever compared to you they would fail miserably. You have the ability to destroy his fragile existence and he knows deep down that your goodness and honesty will prove him a liar and a fraud so he must destroy you. He hates you because you are everything he will never be and you loved him anyway, he knows he could never survive what he has put you through.

Be proud of who you are, glow in your ability to love unconditionally and completely; don’t listen to the people who say you are too sensitive; the world needs more people like you, people who care and cry for other’s pain, what would the world be if not for people who know how to love with their whole being. Sure it is painful, you feel more intensely than others, but you can change the world; for the better.

I found a site that has a free personality test that shows the 16 personality types. It is very similar to the Meyers and Briggs personality test but I found it to be much more informative and very accurate. I took several personality tests while on course about 15 years ago and I thought “Colours” was the most accurate but this test nailed me to a T actually.

My results were INFJ  Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, Judging

Here are brief descriptions of the different personality types

Analysts (INTJsINTPsENTJs andENTPs):

Intuitive and Thinking types – they are fiercely independent, open-minded and imaginative, shining in intellectual debates and scientific or technological fields.

Diplomats (INFJsINFPsENFJs andENFPs):

Intuitive and Feeling types – they are cooperative, empathic and imaginative, focusing on empathy, morality and cooperation.

Sentinels (ISTJsISFJsESTJs and ESFJs):

Observant and Judging types – they are highly practical, meticulous and traditional, embracing and creating order, security and stability wherever they go.

Explorers (ISTPsISFPsESTPs andESFPs):

Observant and Prospecting types – they are spontaneous, practical and inventive, able to quickly think on their feet and make best use of their surroundings.

The site gives a much more detailed description of each personality type and how they relate in general, in a romantic relationship, as a parent and at work and what careers they are best suited for.

I would be interested to know what others scored on their test to see if we can see a definite personality type who falls prey to a narcissist.

I found it very interesting and it answered a lot of questions for me, even in what I should be doing with the rest of my life and whether I should pursue Ladies Witha Truck, etc.

Apparently only 1% of the world population has the same personality type as I do. That explains why I was always made to feel I was wrong to feel the way I do.

I feel I am right on track and living true to myself for probably the first time in my life and that is no doubt why I am feeling at peace right now. I am being true to my most core personality traits.

Remember what I said earlier in this post about not being able to change your personality, you can try for a while but you have to be true to yourself or you become unhappy and anxious. The N forced us to  accept things we never would ordinarily, we compromised in areas we never should have and that was a large part of our pain and confusion; we were not being true to ourselves.

This is a perfect time to do a test like this because you are trying to “get the old you” back, put the pieces together again. This might help.

The link is here  http://www.16personalities.com/

It  you want to see how many of us score the same take the test and post your score in the comments.

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25 Replies to “What Is Your Personality Type”

  1. Hi Carrie,

    very interesting link…thankyou. I fit into the 1 percent also, INFJ!
    I didn’t see one for my xN that I will have to suggest to them. SMAP (selfish, manipulative, abusive pig). I could think of many more special categories for him! Well, at least part of my sense of humor is returning.

    I also work in the area that fits into this personality type.

    I’ll share this with others as it also helped me to think about what I might do in the future. At the moment, I have no life plan yet and hoping I get some sort of idea before long as to where I go from here.

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    1. Vanessa, I like your diagnoses for the narcissist!LOL but I think you were too polite! lol If we can’t laugh we would go insane I am sure and with a narcissist; if you have a sense of humor there is no end to the crazy things they do that once you aren’t in the middle of the drama you can have a good laugh over.
      Thanks for commenting!
      HUgs
      Carrie

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  2. Is it possible to change from one to the other as your life experiences changes? I know that when I met my N I was one type and over the years I changed into something I didn’t even recognize. Now I am going back (finally) to what I was before the N.
    We still keep in touch because of finances and kids; because of that it has taken me longer to heal. But I finally am and now that I can see the change my x N can too. I hear a note of regret in his voice when we talk but I no longer care.

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    1. K.L. I most definitely think you can change over time and due to life experiences but I think your basic core values etc don’t change much. You might think you have changed a lot and outwardly it appears that way but your deep core values wouldn’t change much I don’t think. With the Meyers Briggs test they tell you to go back to an earlier time in your life and answer the questions as you would before whatever trauma caused you to change.
      When I took the :”Colours” test years ago they said a person can change a lot over time.
      The changes I have seen in myself since being with JC are not major changes, I am not near as OCD about my house being clean, I am more flexible and I tend to be late and I used to be early all the time. I am not as organized as I used to be and I am much better at saying No.
      I did the test twice, I answered the way I would have before JC and the way I answer now and my results were different on the last letter but I ended up in the same category anyway. I think there is jiggle room, if you know what I mean.
      You should try the test and answer both ways and see what comes up.

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      1. Well I just took the test and it came up ESFP which did not surprise me in the least. That is how I was before the X and how I am now. When I was with him though I was more of an INTP. I think a lot of what changed me also was having children and basically raising them without input from him. Moms have to be practical, think ahead and a lot of the things that I wasn’t involved in before. Plus I was in a sense mom to him as well. Now the kids are grown, my x is an X and I am free to be who I really am.
        I remember before him I had great social skills and lots of friends but as the marriage progressed he chased the friends away and I became reclusive and withdrawn.
        God I am so much better off now!

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  3. I hope more people take the test, I am really interested to see if there is a higher percentage of one personality than the other. I was thinking there would be more with my test results and then it would make sense seeing as 4% of the population is narcissistic, why so many people like me seem to get hooked up with them. There are so many more of them!! Did that make sense? I think I am tired. LOL
    Ellie, what did it say about dating? You have my curiosity aroused now.

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    1. Morning Carrie! A very Blessed Easter to you and all the people here!

      Well, mine said……
      People with the ISFP personality type are often a complete mystery to others, and even their long-term relationship partners might get surprised from time to time. ISFPs tend to be very sensitive, emotional individuals, but they do their best to hide such traits from the world—and for a good reason. There are few other types that are more vulnerable to criticism, conflict, and adversity in general. However, ISFPs can also be incredibly warm and enthusiastic if their partner is willing to accept them for who they are.

      and

      Finally, it is important to note that people with the ISFP personality type need to know that their love and attention are valued and appreciated. The ISFP is unlikely to ask for this, but they may feel frustrated and disappointed if their partner does not make efforts to express their feelings. Such an expression does not necessarily have to be verbal—ISFPs believe in actions, not words—but it is crucial that ISFPs know that their feelings are being reciprocated.

      Those 2 among other things…….wow. How unlikey was it for me to EVER get back anything from an N? And of course, back then I didn’t know it. Frustration and disappointment, things I lived with for years. x shaking my head x

      I think the test is very accurate!

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      1. Ellie, that’s great it was accurate for you too. It sounds like you had a similar reaction as me. It made so many things in the past make sense and I felt validated after being told I was wrong to feel the way I did, there is actually a personality type I fit into. Its just not the biggest type. The rest of my family never understood where I was coming from. I don’t know how many times my brother called me a flake or a do gooder, bleeding heart. None of it meant to be a compliment. There was something wrong with me because I cared about the homeless, got upset about injustices against people I didn’t even know. If I had a dollar every time my mom gave my that blank stare I’d be rich!!
        I think the last few years I have lived more true to my true nature and that is why I feel more inner peace. I spent the last 3 years figuring out who I really am insteAd of who everyone thought I should be and I think I’ve about nailed it. Being with JC taught me that you might as well be true to yourself because when it comes right down to it at least you can live with yourself and know you did your best with no regrets.
        While with him I could do nothing right, in his mind, in my families mind, and no matter who I listened to I was wrong, not feeling what I “should” be feeling or thinking what I should be thinking. Now I feel what I feel without apology. Sheesh I wish it hadn’t taken me 50+ yrs to figure it out. But better late than never. Lol

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      2. Ellie, that is really interesting. I find it amazing that with a few questions they can nail a person’s personality so well. It makes a lot of sense when you look back over your life at various relationships, even with different jobs I have had and been so miserable in them, Now it makes sense why.
        I can see the description fitting you. You can come across as a hard ass a lot of the time but then other times you are very understanding and empathetic; it is quite the combination LOL But I always appreciate the amount you contribute to the blog, and your wise advice and caring attitude. When I have been away from the blog for a day or two I can always count on you being there for people picking up the slack with sound advice.
        You have been a God send!
        Hugs
        Carrie

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  4. Hiya
    i took this test a few days ago on a different site and i got infp, on this one i got isfp. Ive done it in the past year or so and again got a slightly different result, all i can say is i come out as introverted and perceiving as my dominant characteristics most recently, the rest seems subject to change with how optimistic/happy i am?
    My first result from a year ago put me into the 1% category (infj) so i wonder how much my relationship and experiences have changed me?

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    1. Gemgirl, I found it really interesting, and it helped me to realize some things about my family dynamics and why I have always been concerned with finding my “purpose” for being here. My family has never understood that drive to make a difference in the world or why I do the things I do. They thought I was a “flake”. Lol now I find out I am part of 1% of the population! And there are others just as flakey as me! I am not surprised you are an INFJ, I kinda had a feeling. 🙂

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  5. Well, that is the first time in my life I have taken one of these things and did not come out INFJ. I took it twice to be sure, and both times I came out ISFJ. Weird. We really don’t change–but could my decision to leave the N already be letting me feel more like me? I don’t mind the description of the ISFJ, it actually fits me well at work.

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    1. This was the first time I did one of these and agreed with the description. Quite a few years ago I did several different personality tests for a course I was taking to find out what career path I should pursue. The only one that nailed me was the Colours Test. The Myers Brings Test didn’t describe me at all. But in retrospect I don’t think I was living true to myself at a lot of times in me past. I think going through what I did with JC has taught me to be true to myself and to hell with what anyone else thinks. As far as he was concerned I was always wrong anyway and if I operate out of my comfort zone I have terrible anxiety over not staying true to my principles. Not worth it. So now I try to operate from my gut and how I really feel about a situation and not allow others to influence my decision. That doesn’t mean I won’t ask for or take advice but I consider the source and their motives and where they are coming from.

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  6. But reading the INFJ, I still really resonate with that. Here is a statement that I feel really fits my marriage to the N: “If an INFJ is fighting for something, this is because they believe in the idea itself, not because of some selfish reasons.” So my ideal was that of the lifetime marriage. I just had to come to realize that I can’t do it alone.

    But whether ISFJ or INFJ, I am a caring person. I just do for others because it’s the natural thing for me to do, and I am very, very tired of having other people call that enabling and co-dependent. If I can’t be who I am without the N taking advantage of that, then I don’t need to be with him. That would all be part of there not being room for me to be me in the relationship.

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    1. Marylee, the first time I did the test I was ISFJ then I did it again answering as I would have prior to JC and I was INFJ. They are under the same group for their description. We must be right on the border between the N and S. Either way they describe the personalities exactly the same. I found it to be amazingly accurate and I felt validated for feeling the way I have my whole life; even with my family. Especially with my family. It was apparent this Easter talking to my mom. She just does not see where I am coming from. She doesn’t “get me” and tries to change my point of view and I feel I have to justify my feelings. But I didn’t take it as personal this time and realized I am not “wrong” just rare and my mother ( even though I explained the personality test to her) just doesn’t get it.

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  7. Hi Carrie, I found your blog today and have spent hours reading it. I am too an INFJ, didn’t know there were only 1% of the world population with that type… that explains a lot… Lots of hugs for now as I’ m off to read ore of your fabulous posts ! Catherine.

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    1. Catherine, welcome and thank you for taking the time to comment! Glad you are finding useful information. I didn’t know I was part of 1% either, it kinda explained a lot! Hope to see more comments from you. Hugs
      Carrie

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      1. Hi Carrie, I love your blog, I read so much of it yesterday and I feel like I need to read more. I have been surrounded by sociopaths and narcissist all my life so far from my dad to my boss to a 5 years relationship with someone I considered the love of my life like many victims and targets of narcissists. Your approach and insights are really precious and giving me more tool and knowledge.

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        1. Thewondermya, knowledge is power, until you know what you are dealing with; you can’t deal with it plain and simple. Once you know the truth and that it is not you, they do not change, and nothing you say or do will ever make things right you can start to make decisions and take steps to improve your life.
          I am glad you are finding some useful things here, read away!! and if you have any questions or observations feel free to comment. Welcome!!
          Hugs
          Carrie

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