Have you ever been watching a movie or say TedX video and found it interesting but not something you necessarily want to share, and then all of a sudden you find yourself feeling emotion well up inside you. You feel the tears burning your eyes and next thing you know you are crying? Your emotions have been triggered, they hit that soft spot, the truth.
I was watching this video this morning and by the end of it I was sobbing. I really hate to admit that because I hate to admit that I am not totally healed. I think it is a battle many victim’s have; we want to be healed, we feel we must be healed because if we aren’t healed, we are broken. Broken = Flawed. But maybe broken doesn’t equal flawed. Maybe broken = human.
There is a misconception in society that a healthy happy person doesn’t cry, isn’t triggered by another person’s story, that if you are healed you can put the past behind you and never have a bad dream about it, never sob uncontrollably about it, and never have it affect you again. But it doesn’t happen that way. I think there are people in the world who have horrible things happen to them and they can move on quite quickly and never look back, but I think the majority of us can bring back that pain in a heart beat and when it happens it surprises us and it makes everyone including ourselves question if we are healed.
I think we are healed as much as we are ever going to be healed some times and it is unrealistic to expect ourselves to NOT cry. Some times we are hurt so deeply we CAN’T erase it from our hearts and minds.