Today is my first day that I actually feel like I am going to live. I was literally flat out sick in bed or on the couch for a solid week. I don’t remember being this sick in many years, even my heart attacks didn’t lay me out like this. I am not sure if I broke or fractured a rib from the coughing but it’s been a week now and although I am still very tender I am at least able to sit at the computer for a period of time. All of last week I was propped up with pillows dreading a coughing fit. I can’t even think about it without cringing. I never want to be that sick again. At one point I drove myself to emergency because I was so sick and in so much pain but there was a 2 hour wait and I ended up driving home because I couldn’t stand sitting in a chair in the waiting room. Two days later my mom came and drove me to the doctor who gave me really strong antibiotics and I have steadily gotten better since. I think I was through the worst of it by then any way. but the antibiotics will certainly help to keep me on the healing journey and keep me from having a relapse.
I spent days drifting in and out of consciousness with a raging fever, poor Stella laying by my side and never once asking to go out for more than a quick pee or poo and then coming right back in. Thank God for that kennel that Colin made Kato and Laila when I first moved in. Thank god I was able to get to the grocery store before it hit me full force and i was able to get some apple juice because that was all I ate for several days.
As is common with a high fever I was plagued with horrible nightmares for a couple of nights that have left me with a fear of the dark and being alone that still haunts me now. I have never been afraid at night but these nightmares had me in full blown panic mode and tears. it was horrible. I don’t recall ever being that afraid either. I will write more about the nightmares more in another post, right now I an just writing to say I am back and working through my emails and all the comments on here as best I can and trying to get back on track so please be patient for a little while longer.
right now I am going back to bed to get a good nights sleep and will hopefully feel that much better tomorrow.
I have missed you all and look forward to catching up with everyone soon.