Another old post from 3 years ago. Everyone always thinks I am so strong and people come in 5 months after the relationship with the N ends and want to be over it like I am. I keep saying it has been 4 years!! This post was written exactly 1 year after we had split and months of no contact. He had popped back into my life full of tears and promises and I thought I was strong enough to listen to what he had to say and it wouldn’t affect me. Wrong!!
make sure you read the comments also, and what Mystery Coach and Tik Tok had to say.
Give yourself time to heal and know that I am no stronger than you are, I am just longer out of it and have learned from my mistakes, just like you will.
My eyes are two hot embers from lack of sleep and crying.
I should be out there working already, I waste so much time because of JC.
I shouldn’t have answered the door, shouldn’t have let him in, shouldn’t have let him talk.
It’s not that I believe him, not for a minute do I believe he wants to help me or that he feels some loyalty to me and is willing to fight Marissa for the right to see me. And what the hell is that all about anyway? Since when does he ask permission to do anything? Since when has he decided he couldn’t close the door on “us”? Could have fooled me all last year! He says she wasn’t happy about him seeing me and I wouldn’t have liked it either.
HELLO??? I was expected to shut up and not be so suspicious and paranoid when he…
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