I haven’t been posting much and thought I should just give a bit of an update. I haven’t been feeling very well lately. I feel like I could be coming down with a cold or flu but more than anything I have been having chest and shoulder pain like I did prior to both of my heart attacks.
I think it is just stress from finances, waiting to hear about my school funding and whether I am getting it or not, the stupid rat has made a nervous wreck out of me. I swear I would move if I could, I jump every time I hear a little noise. I am stressed about Christmas. I bought a pre-lit Christmas tree two years ago at the end of the season from Habitat for Humanity for $10 and it was great last year, my first phony tree. It had multi colour mini lights on it and I would have preferred white lights but for $10 I wasn’t going to be picky. I had it all decorated this year and half the lights stopped working a couple of days ago. I couldn’t add lights after it was decorated so I took all the decorations off and decided to take all the lights off and replace them with white LED’s. Easier said than done, let me tell you. Every single light was attached with either a clip or a small zap strap. It took me all day to get the lights off and I was grumpy and short tempered by the time I was finished, cursing up a storm by the end of it. My fingers were cut, nails broken and nerves frayed. It is not like me to get that stressed over something like that so I know it is time to take some down time.
I have just not been very well this last week and been fighting it. I have to take some time and just try to relax. My house is a disaster area because I haven’t felt up to cleaning so I am going to spend a couple of days cleaning and resting until I get my place back to normal.