I was talking to my son yesterday, absorbing him after not seeing him for 6 months. He has been gone from home long enough that I don’t miss him much, he has often lived far from me; we talk on the phone often and time flies by, and then when he is home it is usually busy with family dinners etc. So it is not often that I get to sit back, chat and just appreciate him, soak him in.
I am sure I am no different than most moms, but I was looking forward to this time together more than other times because it was not going to be a short visit with him flying off the next day. We were sitting in his living room, and I couldn’t help but notice the whites of his eyes were pure white and the blue, the deepest most beautiful blue. I had to interrupt him to say how blue his eyes were and he said he was the happiest he had ever been in his life. Do you know what that does to a mother’s heart? it fills it to overflowing. his eyes have always been like a mood ring, deep blue when he is happy and grey if he is sad.
I met his boss, his roomies, some of his co-workers and it was just so relaxed, so pleasant, so normal.
he took me out for dinner and the people he shares the house with came along, we were waiting in line to get a table and having a lively conversation. Kris was just standing back listening when a professional photographer took his picture and then approached him for permission to use his picture in exhibits or whatever and said she would send him a copy. I can’t wait to see it. He had the fore sight to ask her to take our picture together with his phone. Her and her husband took a couple with their cameras also and will send us copies.
I have maybe 6 pics of Kris and I because being a single mom there wasn’t anyone there to take our pic, but this is the best one ever I think. I am so proud of my boy.
James tried to destroy my relationship with my son and it is a horrible feeling when you know there is someone out there who hates you so much that he would want to destroy anything good in your life.
It is shocking and really sad that people live on the earth who take pleasure in destroying the happiness of others. It is absolutely disgusting that I have to worry that if given half a chance James would try to do something to ruin my son’s life even now. I don’t tell my boy anything about James because I don’t want that toxicity to hang over his life. He grew up into a wonderful man despite all the shit James pulled, my son and I are so far past all that shit now, right where we should be, living proof that a person can survive the narcissist and go on to live a happy healthy life.
I ran out of fuel on the way home, stuck out in the middle of no where, with no money, at 2:30am, I got lost and ended up driving around until I ran out of fuel. I didn’t panic, if I had to sleep in the car I would have but a lady cop stopped and drove me for fuel and took me back to my car. Nothing could dampen my spirit last night. I am truly blessed.