I checked to see what visitors to the blog read yesterday and this post was one of them, it is from 2012, 4 years have gone by and so much has happened in those 4 years and I find myself in much the same position I was back then. There have been ups but they were always followed with downs. When a person doesn’t have the resources or support to help themselves it is very hard to make lasting improvements in their life. When you start from a less than nothing point you have so far to go to just get on the positive side of life.
Welfare doesn’t pay enough to get ahead or even maintain a livable existence, any help from other sources is appreciated and helps the person to live but it is always a day to day existence. So you have a person who is totally depleted of all resources; emotionally, financially, mentally and physically, with the narcissist kicking the stool out from under them any time they do make some progress.
It has been 4 years of raised hopes, gains and then loss again. It is so hard to maintain a positive attitude but I try.
Once again I struggle to jump through welfare’s hoops to get just a bit of help as I live in my car and continue to apply for jobs and fight to stay positive, reading that post from 2012 hammered home the truth that women need more help when they leave an abusive relationship, more understanding and positive reinforcement and not to be treated like a plague on society. IF I had gotten the funding for my education where would I be now?
I am proud of how far I have been able to come mentally and how strong I am to keep trying and believe in myself. Things HAVE to turn around. They have to!!
I did have a job interview last Friday and I felt it went very well. It is for a car dealership, a position they are creating to help the sales department. I heard back from them Monday and they wanted me to do some online courses and get back to them. Which I did and she asked if she could call my references. I know I have good references so I am hopeful!! Keep positive thoughts for me please!!
Here is the post from 2012. Where ever you are, please fight for victims of abuse to at the very least, get treated as well as a criminal.