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For Under A $100 You Can Buy A Replace For Your Narcissist

As anyone who has been involved with a narcissist will tell you, they will bankrupt you financially and emotionally. They are a big black hole that will drain you completely before they move on to their next target. Then just as you are starting to heal, they will pop back into your life to test if they’ve still got “it” and suck you back in for another round of, “pull you close in order to discard you”.

Victims of a narcissist often ask “When will he stop hurting me?” “Why won’t he leave me alone?” “I begged him to leave me alone, why does he keep coming back if he doesn’t love me?”

The answer is very simple, because you let him.

Narcissists are nasty like that. They actually get off on your pain. It’s a huge ego boost to be able to hurt you that badly and be able to suck you back into their toxic web. They do not value your love and loyalty, in fact they are disgusted by it and feel justified to hurt you even worse next time to punish you for your gullibility.

Don’t worry, they will be back as many times as you allow.

I have found the perfect replacement for the narcissist in your life.

The Boyfriend Pillow


You can start with just the pillow for around $35 and once you have had enough time to get to know him and want to take it to the next level you can add a dildo of your choice, for the ultimate boyfriend experience.

If you want the deluxe relationship you can add Alexa (just eliminate the a on the end and call it Alex) to have it all for a fraction of the cost and NO heart ache!!

Ten Reasons Why A Boyfriend Pillow Is Better Than A Narcissist

1. You set the pace of the relationship, no one pushing you for sex too soon or wanting to monopolize your time.

2. You may be thinking “but a pillow or dildo don’t have feelings.” Neither does a narcissist, and a pillow can’t discard you!

3. You always know where your boyfriend pillow is. No more nights wondering where he is, who he’s with and when he will be home.

4. No more sleeping alone while he feeds his addiction to porn, dating sites.

5. Safe sex! You don’t have to worry about getting an STD from a pillow or dildo.

6. You will have great orgasms every time, when YOU want them. No more being forced to have sex whether you want to or not. No more begging for sex and no more being left hanging. (Because let’s face it, most victims of a narcissist will tell you that although sex was fantastic in the beginning, after awhile your pleasure was never considered; unless he was trying to win you back)

7. After the initial cost to purchase your boyfriend pillow, there is no further expense to you. No more lending money that never gets paid back, no more supporting someone who can’t hold a job, no one draining your savings account or taking half your house.

8. Speaking of your house. Its easy to get rid of a boyfriend pillow. They can’t stalk you. They won’t blow up your phone or show up unannounced at your door. If you meet another guy, you can throw the boyfriend pillow and dildo in a box in the attic and it will be there waiting should you ever want it back. No guilt trips, revenge, or bringing up the past.

9. A boyfriend pillow will put his arm around you and just listen for as long as you need without interrupting. Will never tell you that you’re wrong to feel what you are feeling or blame you for your own pain.

10. If you go for the deluxe boyfriend package and get “Alex” you will have someone who will make reservations, book trips, change the music (to songs you want to listen to), turn the lights out and lock the doors. All things you probably had to do when you were with the narcissist. Plus an added bonus; you only have to pay for one when you travel or dine, instead of two.

That doesn’t include all the things any woman could appreciate.

– when you come home after a long day the house is in the exact condition you left it. No dirty dishes scattered through the house, no muddy foot prints on the freshly washed floors.

– only one extra shirt to wash, dry and iron

– no wet towels on the floor or bed

– no dirty clothes laying around

– the toilet seat is never left up

– no whiskers or tooth paste left in the sink (unless you leave them there)

– no one farting, reading in the bathroom, or missing the toilet bowl, using the last of the toilet roll and not replacing it (or putting it on the wrong way)

An added bonus, the boyfriend pillow will always hold a crying baby while you get a bottle ready.

A dog is great (and I would never trade Stella for a pillow) but a dog does restrict a person’s lifestyle, many places don’t allow pets, and they can be expensive.

I think I am onto something here.

Tell me what you think!

* Disclaimer. I love men, I have a son (but then he is perfect) and know many men who I like or love alot! This is meant to be light hearted and to make you smile.

Why Did The Narcissist Dump You and What To Expect

If you have some illusion that you can stay friends with the narcissist, you are sadly mistaken. It doesn’t matter if he has stayed in contact with his other ex’s, all that means is they are drinking the kool-aid and hanging on; thinking they will get him back. You could be thinking, like I did and like I am sure James’s new woman thought, “He can’t be that bad if his ex’s want him back, he must be telling the truth that she was the one in the wrong, otherwise why would she want him back or even stay friends with him?”

For the same reason you can’t let him go; you know he was abusive, you know you were miserably unhappy and walked on eggshells for most of the relationship but you keep hanging onto the hope someday he will realize what he had with you, and appreciate all you sacrificed in the name of love.

The narcissist has a unique way of bitching about his ex and blaming her for everything and yet still making the new woman feel insecure about being as good as his exs. Let me explain, even though they were wicked evil bitches that broke his heart, they had some unique trait that he just can’t seem to forget or you can’t seem to match.  Out of the blue he will reminisce about the ex after filling the new woman with stories of what a bitch she was. It is another way of keeping the new woman in line and on her toes. She is determined to not do that things that put you in the category of “psycho bitch” but at the same time starts to feel inferior because of some trait he can’t seem to forget. If you continue to communicate with him, allow him to pop in and out of his life all you are doing is enabling him to further hook his new victim. You become one of his players in his orchestrated life. Another reason that no contact is so vitally important; unless you want to help him hook the next victim.

The absolute best way to get revenge on the narcissist is to not play the game, walk away and get a life without him; anything else only gives him either:

A: ammunition to call you a psycho bitch

B: Helps him prove to the new victim  that he can’t be all bad, or why would you be so upset to lose him?

C: Gives him narcissistic supply while he is on his best behavior with the new victim.

D: Opportunity to hurt you even more

* Whether it was your idea or his – after the breakup it will be all your fault and he will be the victim.

Depending on who he is talking to the story will change, and the story he tells you will change to his mood at that time, hourly, daily; from you bailed on him, leaving him heart broken and alone, to; he finally found the strength to leave YOU after years of abuse.

If you have read up on narcissists at all you have probably read that once they are done with you there is no getting them to change their mind. Which is partially true; most articles don’t tell you when exactly they will be done with you. If this is the first time you have split from the narcissist, more than likely he is not done with you yet. Don’t get your hopes up, I don’t mean that there is a chance that it all might work out, What I mean is; a narcissist gets bored very quickly in a relationship and needs to spice things up and he doesn’t get his pointers on how to spice up a relationship from the latest issue of “Cosmopolitan”. His idea of spicing things up is to dump you abruptly and as cruelly as possible and then suck you back in by saying you misunderstood him, are too sensitive, or deny ever saying anything remotely like he wanted to end it.

The first time James and I split he told me he wanted me to move out, that I needed to find out what it was like to support myself, he was sick of carrying the load in the relationship. (which made no sense to me seeing as I had been a single working mom for my son’s whole 17 years). He said that I had pushed him into living together and he had never wanted a live in relationship. I thought maybe I HAD misinterpreted his actions and words, even though I had asked him directly when he got the job in a different town if he wanted to move alone and just date. And a month before we bought the house he had proposed to me and told me that being with me was the best he had ever known. All I knew for sure was that he treated me like he loathed me and spent as much time away from me as he could and I was very unhappy, so I started to plan my move.  As soon as I found a place to live etc. then all of a sudden, “I was leaving him, bailing! giving up on the relationship.” and I couldn’t get rid of him.  I was totally confused and ended up going back, well; it was like we never broke up.

it happened often like that, he would want to end it, I would believe him, he would cry and say I left him; I would love him and never would have left if he hadn’t told me to, so I would go back.

In my rational mind I tried to make sense of what was going on. I knew he had been hurt in the past (all those psycho ex’s you know) and I though maybe he was afraid I would leave him so he was going to leave me first. Or maybe he was afraid of commitment so he had to sabotage the relationship and keep it from developing into something more serious. After a while I could see a pattern (or thought I did) where every time we were living in some hell hole or hadn’t paid the rent for awhile he would want to break up; I would go and get a place to live and next thing you know he is so sorry and wants to try again. Or comes to use my shower and never leaves and never apologized at all, was just as miserable and distant as always. Then I would get angry and demand he leave, HA! he would refuse to leave…….. if I put his stuff outside, beside the road, begged, pleaded, refused to let him bring anything into the house whatsoever, he would not leave, he would sleep in his truck in the driveway. AND he would call me during the day like everything was AOK. Ask me if I wanted him to bring home dinner, or offer to buy me dinner. He would get a job, start to shower again and next thing I know I let him spend the night and “here we go again!” Almost immediately he would revert back to his miserable, unkept, cheating self and I would end up moving to get away from him. He would sabotage my truck and I would call him to rescue me or he would have an accident and I would nurse him.

After 10 years of this dance I truly didn’t think we would ever really split for good. It was just the way we were, the way he had to have the relationship, so when he dumped me for real! and found another woman to be his soul mate. I was devastated, crushed, broken. Not that I hadn’t been for many  years, All that breaking up, making up and being discarded year after year takes a huge toll; you don’t realize because it is a way of life for you. You don’t realize how he has been whittling away at your self esteem and literally sucking the life out of you.

So, if this is your first break up with a narcissist; that is what you can expect, it can go on years and years, after birthing many children; and it never gets better. The abuse gets worse and you get weaker and more broken. But no matter how long you have been in a relationship with the narcissist, who does the breaking up or if he even has a new partner; it will be YOU who has to go no contact.

That is right, even though he/she has found their new soul mate and is happier than they have ever been; they will still pop in and out of your life, professing their love or to remind you what a bitch, loser, asshole, psycho you are and that you are to blame for the relationship failing. You would think that they would be so happy to be free of you that they would ride off into the sunset with their soul mate but nope, they have to rub your nose in the new relationship, they have to make sure to destroy anything good that comes your way. You are such an evil person you do not deserve anything good, ever. They will expect you to spread your legs anytime they want a little bit on the side. After all you are supposed to be so happy whenever they grace you with their presence that you gratefully fall into bed with them, so that immediately after sex they can tell you that they can’t see you anymore because they feel too guilty lying to their new woman. Or they will tell you that the new woman is so upset that they still are talking to you that he has to end all contact. (after you ignored 215 emails and text messages for 3 months, the first time you finally give in and respond he seduced you and dumps you in one fell swoop) Gotcha!! that was good for him, was it good for you?? Didn’t think so.

Be prepared for him to slander you to everyone, your family and friends, your boss, well, anyone who will listen. They will hear all about all the money you spent, how he did everything in the relationship and you were sitting on the couch all day eating bon bons and drinking. (that is what James said I did all day) and demanding he make more money. I was a black hole that he sunk all his money, love, and affection into for 10 years and he was so happy to finally be away from the constant drama and trauma of being with me.

You can get as mad as a hornet and try to tell people the truth and it won’t do any good because you were loyal and didn’t talk about him behind his back and he has already told everyone how vindictive and spiteful you are. To get angry will only prove his point, that you are a psycho lying bitch. Unbelievable?! oh you bet!!

But wait, that isn’t all! There is so much more!!

You know that special trip you always talked about taking? He will take it with the new woman.

I always wanted to take the Rocky Mountaineer Train, (it’s an old train that takes a scenic trip up to Whistler. Only a couple of months into their relationship James and Marissa took the Rocky Mountaineer to Whistler. I bet she paid for it because he wasn’t working at the time, he was “retired”. If it weren’t for me he could have stayed retired, but he had to go back to work to pay off all the debt I left him with, poor soul, lucky he fell in love with a widow with money who was more than happy to prove she was nothing like me.

All those things you begged him for, to show some affection, to even mention you on his facebook, to stay home at night? Well, he is doing them all with the new woman and of course plastering all over facebook and instagram, twittering about how in love he is and how he has met his soul mate. When you were with him he acted like you didn’t exist, you kept checking his relationship status on FB to see if he was listed as single because he sure acted single.

Every once in a while he will make contact, he will be so pleasant and sweet and make sure to fill you in on how happy he is now, how committed he is to the new woman and how wonderful she is.

You won’t recognize him, things he hated before are now center stage in his life. Never wanted kids – now he is with a woman with 6 kids and he is babysitting them while she is out. He never went to church? now he is in church every Sunday and praising the Lord. Never used to cook, now he has dinner ready every night. He used to spend all night watching porn and never come to bed? now he sits on the couch and watches TV with her and they go to bed together.

All of a sudden he is Mr. Honesty, he would never even think of lying to his new woman. I remember James guarded his FB with his life, and after we split he comments that him and Marisa are going through his contact list and he is telling her how he met each of them etc. Oh gag me!! bet she didn’t know he had two facebooks, one for family and friends and one for the women he was flirting with and screwing.

Breaking up with a narcissist is nothing like any break up you have ever experienced before but then that stands to reason because dating a narcissist was nothing like any relationship you ever had before, so to expect an amicable break up is delusional.

One thing you can be sure of; he will not be fair. Hire the best lawyer you can afford and get everything in writing, child custody, visitation, division of property, filing of taxes. Do not let him stall you, intimidate you or manipulate you into anything, get legal counsel on everything. He will pretend to be agreeable only to suck you into giving him something. He will not ever have your best interests at heart. It has always been about him and it always will be.

In every single break up with a narcissist I have heard about, he moves on with insulting speed and the very next victim is the love of his life, the one he has only dreamed, his soul mate. You are heart broken that he can move along that quickly but you must realize that although you were in a committed relationship and thinking of it as forever, he never was. Sure he said he loved you and would never leave but narcissist will say anything to get what they want.

For you to commit to someone you have to mean it so you think everyone operates the same way but a  narcissist can say “I do” in the afternoon and screw the maid of honor that night. Like James said, “I meant it at the time I said it.” or “I love you today.” and that is the way they think. They have no problem making promises because they have no problem changing their mind. They are never committed to anyone or anything; every man or woman that crosses their path is a prospect and if that person seems like a better option than you; they will have no problem dumping you. If you allow them to come and go out of your life all that is happening is, they are testing the waters, seeing if they can hook someone better than you, if it doesn’t work out they come back. Eventually there is going to be someone better because every time you take them back they lose more respect for you and you lose respect for yourself. With time you either shut off all your feelings or you become an emotional basket case; either way you are of no use to the narcissist any more and he has to find fresh supply.