I Am Not Dealing Well

I am sitting here frozen. Reminiscent of when James would rip my heart out and blame me for it. You know when your whole world seems to come crashing down around you and you just can't cope, can't think clearly enough to make sense of your thoughts.  I can't drive right now, I can't make … Continue reading I Am Not Dealing Well



This is my typical morning view, I am sitting in my little cabin listening to my wind chimes being whipped into a frenzy by the wind. The sun is shining but the wind is cold, yet I am warm curled up on my couch with Laila snuggled up beside me with her head on my … Continue reading Mornings

What Was I Thinking

I was thanking my lucky stars, I could not believe my good fortune. I had seen my girlfriends meet men who treated them like queens and wanted to take care of them and my girlfriends let them. In the past I had been ferociously  independent and self sufficient. I had listened to my dad and … Continue reading What Was I Thinking

The Attraction Grows

He laughed again and said,"So I gather it didn't go well?" Me: "He was a pompous ass lawyer" He had a really good laugh at that and then said he was sorry it didn't turn out. Me: "Oh well, I didn't have any expectations that he was going to be the love of my life … Continue reading The Attraction Grows